Unexplained Confusion

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, I am a girl, with an average passion, in everything she does. I like sports, but it's not like something I follow up all the times. But I do enjoy them. I like to read, but compared to before, I take more than 3 days to finish a book. Doesnt sound like a bookworm anymore. I like to draw, but nothing drives me to draw. I like musics, but I'm not good in composing songs. I dont have an ambition to be in my life currently. I follow the flow where my interest and my capabilities as the indicator of my future. Okay, I dont like Maths. It's not like I hate them, I dont. I've been spending 12 years of my life, learning Maths, struggling in the subject. No-ope. Numbers not my thing. I tried anyway. Decided not to pursue anything related to Maths for my degree. So I crossed engineering and major maths, definitely, and courses that need me to take Maths. I'm not going to sleep in one of the classes anymore. So far as a pure science stu...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, Honestly, for the past few years, school had really taught me to be mentally strong, as ever. As a highly sensitive person, I'm a vulnurable person, and an emotional-prone one. It has been countless time I shed my tears, because of someone, or something. I used to feel pain for such a long time, for I dont know what the reason was. Senang cerita, ini la masalah remaja aku (sekarang dah tak berapa nak remaja belasan, next year dah jadi angka 2) 2012 - 2014 During this period, I was a very insecure person, had low self-esteem, couldn't talk properly to guys (except for Aizad) and controlling myself too much (like how did I look) - became too conscious if someone might look at me, and judge. I was also being dependable to my friends very much, no lie. Because my friends are too nice! Sampai I didn't even think, yang dunia luar can be harsh to me. People arent all the same, people arent all pleasant as what I used to think of my friends dulu. ...